FINAL exam is over!
holidays is coming
♥ i love it lots ♥
time for some relaxing moments
most of all
Penang I'm coming
YEPPIE!!

time is running without taking any break
but there is no progress in my life
i am still standing at the same position
with no improvement
perhaps waiting for the right timing
is what i have to do for now
but is a waste of time
when i'm waiting without doing anything

there are few vital decisions to be made
i'm proud to say that i've decided
right now i'm going to fill my life
with more colours
is never going to be black and white only
i'm glad that there are people
around me helping me to fill it with colours too
truly appreciated every single colours given to me

being a selfish person like me
thinking about myself all day long
is never the right way to behave
however i'm a warm-blooded creature
that will think about people
i loved and cared most
most of the time
all these will give me headaches
being too kind-hearted
that couldn't proceed any further
if it may bring any pain to others

choices are always there for me
which path to take
and where will it lead me to
is always left unknown
the blur image in front of me
make me stand still and think
especially when i have no faith in others
i always believe that
my future lies in my own palm
thus never rely and blame others
when things never turn out my way

i'm trying to be cautious with
every single step that i took
never try to look back
but looking forward all time
keep myself saying NO about dwelling in the past
giving myself a chance to walk further
leads to giving others a chance walking into my life
i could never know
who is going to stay by my side
and who is going to leave me with a cold shoulder one day
promises make by people
may be broken at times
when the world of theirs change in some way

living in a world that
is uncertain and changes occur at times
things may not turn out according to plan
i've learned and grown up by
going through every obstacles in life
is a tough life but by staying focus
i've always believe that i will not collapsed
every storm that hit me
even the strong wind that blown me away
one day i will still be back the one that i used to be;
the tough and cheerful girl
time is a factor that heals everything around the world
treasured every process of healing
and appreciate the results of it
lastly never forget people
who actually lend you their hands,
supporting ad motivating you
when you are at the lowest point of life

is been about two weeks after my MIDTERM..
there are lots of up and down in these 2 weeks..
mainly i'm back in Penang for a week..
it was a great and wonderful week..
it's like heaven to me..
it sounds like i was back from the hell
however, i fell sick & have some arguments with family..
i'm struggling about the real meaning of living now..
thinking thinking thinking..
about what???

*considering going back Penang to continue my Degree*
-which college should i enroll myself-
-which is the best choice for me-
-will i regret going back there-

most of you will come to me with curiousity..
so let me make myself clear here..
i'm tired of the life in KL..
is very stress here..
( traffic jams, parking space, travel distance, food, friends, time, environment)
i'm tired travelling to and fro
KL-PENANG..
is either staying in KL or in Penang..
i been quite a hard decision for me
because i have paid a few thousand in HELP Uni..
is a waste but
at the same time i realise that
if i stay in Kl any longer,
i might get mad due to education and lifestyle here...
wasting a sum of $$ is better than taking the risk...

*thinking over & over again about my relationship*
-which is the best choice-
-do i feel in love-
-which suit me the best-

i've been wondering am i too selfish..
there is not much commitment and effort..
who is consider as the right guy for me..
there is no mr perfect in life..
but what am i waiting for to put everything in..
i have no idea..
too much doubts and hurts in the past..
having too high expectations...
anyhow, deep down my heart
i know the reason well..
i'm still dwelling in the past..
at that time it comes to me easily but
somehow it didnt goes easily as i thought...
looking for substitution that i will never find..
putting on hope that i will never have..
looking forward for it that will never come to me..
really wonder much..
who can wake me up telling me that
your true love is waiting for you..
you no longer have to dream about it or dwell in the past..
he is the one ; your present & future!


LIFE IS ABOUT MAKING DECISIONS FROM THE CHOICES THAT YOU HAVE
~always having problem making decisions because i'm born indecisive;
always weight the pros and cons but get no results in the end~

MIDTERM EXAM ON FRIDAY
arghhhhhhh!!
feeling lazy to study...
OMG!!
how? how? how?
i need help..
how i wish i've a computer brain..
i could save everything inside!!!

out of sudden i feel so stress and emo..
sometimes i really dont understand
what am i doing..
i know that this will not last forever..
but i really dont know how to solve it..
i feel that i'm stuck in between of two apples..
i never want to spoil any of the apples around me..
nevertheless, i could only blame myself
for being too selfish till i bring myself struggling in this situation..
i wish i could escape from all these
and be in a place that no one knows me
or could contact me..
i'm both mentally and physically tire of all these..
but how can i stop it and lead back the life
that i always wanted...
things are taking much longer than i expected..
i thought that new way could come into my life
and make me feel lots better
but i'm wrong and yet out of patience to wait for it..
i dont wish to lose any of you...
but somehow i think i will one day..
i'm not a good friend or girlfriend but
i know myself is a kind and soft-hearted..
i'm always dwell with my emotions..
happy, sad, laugh, cry
all these can happen to me in a second..
apples may be in red or green..
i may always like the red apple but
sometimes liking it is not everything
as the green apple may taste better for me..
my feeling towards everything is so uncertain right now..
i dont want anyone to suffer anymore
but how can i do so...
people around me should be happy with their lives
but seem like my appearance has make things worst..
i wonder an appearance of a person really change a person's life...
right now, i'm so indecisive..
time that given to me is more than enough
but i'm still out of idea
what is my decision is going to be like..
i dont want to be regret in future..
i never want to ask for more
but i just wish that things could come to the end as soon as it could..
a happy beginning may not have a happy ending
but a sad beginning will not be a happy ending for definite..
in this moment, i see all type of personalities in people who i love..
the cruel, kind, weak, strong, caring, loving,
determine, confident, honest, patience..
but which is real...
what i could say is thanks a lot..
i truly appreciate things and memories that are given to me..
i'll never forget it and treasured it..
anyhow, i never ask for any forgiveness from any of you..
because i'm SORRY since the beginning!!
and i wish that time could heal everything and
bring all us back to our wonderful lives

Busy Studying!!
lecture teaches like Bullet Train

lots to self-study
quiz is coming
midterm is coming too
arghhhhhhh!!!!
stresssss!!!

my most FAVORABLE song

Ti Amo
Fahrenheit feat. Jade
炎亚纶&刘力扬

虽然是简单的形容
虽然是重复的动作
因为有你
让一切都变成不平凡
好想缝合你我手心
就这样牵住放不开
有你陪伴
呼吸着有你的空气
就是幸福
Ti amo Te Quiero
每一天都要爱上你
想着你 沉入梦境
一张眼 一清醒
第一个想到又是你
Sa la he And I Love You
我每天都要爱上你
少一天 就会遗憾
陪着你的光阴
怎样都不算蹉跎

好想缝合你我手心
就这样牵住放不开
有你陪伴
呼吸着有你的空气
就是幸福
Ti amo Te Quiero
每一天都要爱上你
想着你 沉入梦境
一张眼 一清醒
第一个想到又是你
Sa la he And I Love You
我每天都要爱上你
少一天 就会遗憾
陪着你的光阴
怎样都不算蹉跎
陪着你的光阴
怎样都不算蹉跎
永远都觉

♥ the song makes me think of you ♥